My Story: how meditation changed my life

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I want to share with you my story how I came from being very skeptical about meditation to practicing it daily and enjoying it immensely.


I have been practicing mediation for nine years. I started doing it when I was 40+ after a separation with my ex-husband.  I was scared to start my life from scratch all by myself in a country, where I had been living only for 7 years. Being challenged by my fears, I decided to try meditation to calm myself down.


Coming from a chemical engineering background with 25 years of planning and analyzing experiments, and later analyzing efficiency of well completion operations, I did not believe that I would be able to quiet my mind. I started with silent meditations and every time I had the same experience: my mind was chatting all the time.  So I tried guided meditations as it was easy to follow the instructions. I loved few guided meditations, however most of them asked to visualize a lot of different things, and it drove me crazy as I was not able to see them in my mind.


After quite a few failed experiences, I felt that meditation is not for me.  In addition to not being able to quiet my mind, I suffered from sitting in yoga posture. At that time I was not a yoga person, I did not like physical activities, did not go to gym, and lead a very sedentary lifestyle, so my body was very tight. I started doing yoga 2-3 times a week. Still, after a couple minutes sitting in easy pose, I had strong pain in my back and my thighs that was killing me. 


Desperately, I asked Archangel Haniel in my personal channeling session with Memra about how I should sit properly for meditation to avoid pain. She explained that sitting is not as important as relaxation, and suggested to put lots of pillows around me to feel comfortable to relax my body.


I did it, along with the codes for calming the mind, that Archangel Haniel gave in her teaching and I am going to share later in my messages, it started working! First time I noticed a pause between my thoughts, I was so excited!  It was an amazing feeling. I understood that actually silent meditation is not that hard to achieve: the more relaxed and joyful you feel about it, the easier it becomes.


But true devotion to meditation came later during 4-week Moon Course retreat at Las Piramides  in Guatemala at Lake Atitlan.

30 minute meditations twice a day in a beautiful temple have reinforced the discipline and the devotion I now have for meditation as a personal practice and a daily ritual.


It has become such an incredible experience of joy, bliss, unconditional love, and a rich connection to my soul and my spirit, to the Universe and to the Creator/ Source. The feeling of such a deep connection is worth all the years of trying to reach it.


It changed my life, literally, now i am following my dreams!


when you meditate, you radiate


And if such a skeptical woman with a super analytical mind, could find passion for meditation, I believe that everyone can do it!

That is why I decided to start my blog. 



My goal is to encourage people to either continue or start practicing meditation, even if it appears that you may never silence your mind. I would like to share my tips and angelic codes, which I hope help you to get to the depth within yourself and move gracefully through transition time.


 The codes and affirmations I am going to post were given by Archangel Haniel, channeled by Memra (Audrey Cole). More information on her wonderful services can be found at her website.



 I would highly recommend a personal channeling with Archangel Haniel. It is a wonderful gift to yourself or your loved ones, especially if one is confused, saddened, depressed, lacking direction in life or looking to start a new opportunity.



In service,


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